I've always considered myself the queen of giving sensible, level-headed, pragmatic advice. Especially when it comes to relationships. A very close friend of mine came to me for some relationship advice (I won't air her dirty linen in public). To me, the solution to the problems she was experiencing seemed rather obvious. After listening, I got on my soap box and proceeded to preach my "Just leave him" gospel, quite convincingly, in my opinion. I believe she already knew what she needed to do about the situation but was just looking for someone to nudge her in the right direction. So you can imagine how frustrated I felt when, a couple of weeks later, she came and presented me with the very same dilemma. Huko pulling out my hairs and grinding my teeth, lol.
Well, ironically, I now find myself at the same crossroads as my dear friend. I'm in a situation where I kind of know what I need to do, but I'm having the hardest time executing it. Those wahengas were right when they said "mganga hajigangi". Some times, matters of the heart are not as simple and straightforward as they appear to be. There are past histories and strong bonds and countless memories which we accumulate over time, which we hold on to and which hold us back from taking action. The uncertainty of the future and the comfort of familiarity paralyzes us with fear. I cringe when I think about the decision I'm faced with. Is there anyone out there who will help me, give me some sensible advice to nudge me in the right direction? One thing I've learned from this experience is that, I have to wait till I'm ready to take that leap. I can't allow anyone to push me over that cliff if I'm not ready to jump.
Lord, please give me the wisdom to make the right choice.